reveal
Our past reveals our future. It can reveal everything you need to know about what is happening now. It can show you the trajectory for your future. It can even show you where you have split. Where you’ve lost our power. Where your soul has fractured. Where you have done wrong. Where others have done you wrong—and how you’ve let or led them to do so.
Something fucked up in your life? Can’t keep a lover? Consistently betrayed? Always let down? Financial stress? Struggling through addictions? Can’t ever seem to “get there?” Wonder why everyone else seems to have it easy and you don’t? All of these things are rooted in past lives.
Have good luck? Found your soul mate with ease? Things always seem to go your way? Wondering why everyone around you seems to suffer and you’re not? All of these things are rooted in our past lives.
Are you aware that the current life you’re living is about to be one of your past lives? The life you’re currently living is helping shape your future lives. Some deep thought into this can cause distress especially since if you are living a life of struggle, trauma, addiction…To think that this suffering is what is going to shape your future can be quite traumatizing all in itself without even thinking about all the actual life events that are hurting you. Another layer of trauma and bullshit.
But my loves, I keep telling you…urging you…reminding you…encouraging you—to see that how you choose to see everything that is happening around you is more than just something that’s another layer of suffering you have to carry and hold. Something that would cause you to be worse off than you already are stuck mentally in. You need to stop. To open your eyes. You’re not just where you are now. You are everything you’ve ever been and will be in the future in this very moment. And each and every single moment of every day you have a choice.
You sometimes can’t see that choice. Or think that you can make the choice that will make you the most happy you could ever be. But my loves, you couldn’t be more wrong. Yet again I come to you to tell you that you must continue to break through these patterned lies that you have been brought to believe. You struggle because you can feel what could be but you are clouded by all you’re allowing yourself to see.
Revealing takes time. Unfolding takes time. Repatterning takes time.
Keep up the work. You must not relent. You must not back down. Yes, it’s tiring. Yes, it’s time consuming. Yes, it’s inconvenient.
But my loves, when you look back on this life what is it that you want to see?
You, right now are sowing seeds for the future of your soul. Just right now, as you read this, you are creating your future. As you look back on all the lives you’ve lived, what do you see? How do you hold space for that part of you that was suffering then? It is because you haven’t yet asked, because maybe you didn’t know, what was missing. SO I’m telling you now. Ask. Ask the hard questions. Look and bear witness to what you were. This is the only way. This is the only way that you will learn. This is the only way that you will understand. This is the only way that you will come to see. This is the only way you can unburden yourself from your past.
So that you can be free for your future.
At any moment you have the opportunity to release yourself from the limitations that you have placed upon yourself. At any moment you have the ability to open your eyes and just take it all in. What, do you think it’s going to hurt? How is it that you can hurt anymore than you already do? You are still carrying all that suffering and trauma from your past lives and THIS is the basis and foundation of the suffering you’re experiencing now. You need to remove those rotten roots. When you journey back to the sources of your imbalances presenting themselves in this life you can finally be free to have everything you want.
But you must be brave.
And you must go willingly.
And you must be open.
And you must receive whole-heartedly.
Most importantly, you must not continue to retain what’s happened. Because what you will bear witness to in your own lives can be nothing short of completely unbelievable. You will see death. You will see yourself abused. You will see yourself as an abuser. You will see yourself depleted. You will see yourself elated. You will find all manner and aspect of every facet of what and who you were—which will show you who you are now. You were those things. You were that person. Those who have come before you are not you. They are a part of you, yes—but they are not you. Generations struck with struggle, racism, grief, destruction—history shows a grim and also enlightening past of how your lives here on Earth have played out. You are not those people. Part of you lives in them because you are all connected through that one true divine spark from your species’ creation. But, my loves, each of you is your own piece of this puzzle. And it is your duty to turn over your puzzle piece and take responsibility for where you for in the larger picture.
You can’t turn your piece over if you’re afraid of what’s on the other side. You can’t turn your piece over if you’re assuming what’s on the other side. You don’t have anyone else to cheat off of. Even if someone else is to tell you about your past lives, it is always going to be through their lens. That is helpful for you to find your way to your path. However, it is not going to get you the deepest and most healing results. You must do that hard work for yourself. You must look within and see what is there for you to discover. You must take that first step. Having someone else do your work for you does not mean you’ve done your work.
And so I provide you with the space to do that work on your own. And so I provide you with the encouragement to go on those journeys yourself. But again I impress upon you the importance of not holding on to those stories. They are lessons. And if we must lie to get you to understand how you should see them—then consider your past lives your fairy tales. Tales of what not to do. Tales to find the greater lesson in the messages you hear. They are cautionary tales for what you should be looking for in the future.
Do not hold on to them. The lessons are what should be carried with you. Keep a notebook, of sorts, for your spiritual journeys. One that has red flags, key words, directions—your own personal code book for where to look and what to avoid based on what you’ve seen arise in the lives you’ve lived before. And if you’ve found yourself in a life where you are dying, splayed out in cold blood, alone—what are you to do with that information?
Witness it. Ask to rewind time. Ask hard questions. Did you give your power away to those you thought you loved so they would love you in return? Did you keep your voice quiet only to be scorned by not speaking your turn? Being gentle with these wounds will not clean them to the degree that is needed. The flesh and the blood and the bone are rotting in some of these wounds. And they are being carried with you still.
What about your family trauma? Are you the one who bears the brunt of that karmic weight? When you decide to release and forgive by investigating and taking those lessons with you—breaking those chains and patterns for the future—you can change your family karma for your next lives.
Because you are continually sowing seeds for a future you have yet to see. And this is where you have the upper hand. This is where you have the ability to rise above. Because you have here now asking the things that you couldn’t ask before. You didn’t have the tools before. You didn’t have the will power before. You didn’t have this mindset you do right now.
You have SO MUCH ADVANTAGE in this life you’re living. So many who are around you are just like you. Seekers of the truth. Travelers in the dark. DO NOT fear the darkness you journey into. That is where your power lives. There is so much you can reclaim simply by bearing witness to your own suffering. Showing up for your own self when you had no one. Time is an illusion. And in those places where you must bear witness to your great tragedies, you can come back to your own self and be their savior—their healer—your own healer. It is in these visitations into lives past that you can learn to be your own best friend. You can find peace and strength and sovereignty.
The service you provide to your own self in those moments is one that you are hoping to witness here in this live. You’re looking for someone to save you. But if you are unable, or unwilling, or unclear of where you need to save your own self in lives past—my loves, I think that saving you hope to happen now is going to be prolonged. When you begin to show up for your own self in smaller ways, even just one past life revisited, you are going to be able to shift the sands of time. The waves of your whole soul’s existence. Energy cannot die. Energy is transmuted, intentioned, sent, redirected. Serve yourself in the past so that you can learn how to shift your lives now. Your future self is taking notes and thanking you for all the work you’re doing now—that’s less they have to do.
Don’t become the thing you’re bearing witness to in your past. Be better. Do better. It’s not for anyone else, it’s only and solely just for you. No one is watching or taking notes. No one is judging you where you journey. So be careful the judgements you place on your own self because you are your own worst and harshest critic. Choose to see how you treat your past selves in times of great suffering as a reflection of how you came to the suffering you are in now or how you are living through that suffering int his life. Another hard pill to swallow. But everything you have is of your creation, even if that means that you find it’s roots in a life from your past. And it’s taken this long for that trauma to surface exactly as it needs to in the time it needed to for you to deal with it in the exact way you needed to in this moment in time.
So yes, it sucks. Yes, it’s inconvenient. Yes, it’s traumatic. But it needed to be. It needed to be that bad for you to have this moment right now where you go back in time to that past life self and work to show them the person you needed to be for yourself. You save yourself. You must train your mind to be stronger than your emotions. You must learn to overcome your natural inclination on what you have been trained or programmed to do with the information you receive about yourself, and what you then must do to process it. The processing you think you have to do is your body’s way of keeping you in your pain and keeping you from moving through it.
That processing you think you have to do, I’m afraid to tell you, is another lie. Though that life is yours, it’s not you. You are here because of that other person. And as you’d pay respects to others who’ve come before you, please my dear children. Please. Use the privilege you have in this life. Use the privilege of space from that time where you once struggled. From that time where you once lost. Use your privilege you have of everything you’ve been gifted and educated and earned from all those years upon years upon years of journeying.
The processing you think you have to do is an illusion. It’s one created by this lifetime—a veil. You must push through. Nothing can ever be as bad as it once was…unless you refuse to acknowledge it. In this life as you have come to learn, the things you don’t choose, the paths you don’t take, the mistakes you run away from—what do they do? They keep coming back to hurt you, to poision you, to keep you where you are.
Because if you are still hurting, reeling from what you’re witnessing, will you still want what’s on the other side? Most of the time, my dear sweet children, you do not. You shy away. You back away. You make excuses. Suppressing that pain, ignoring it, redirecting it. Where do you think it goes? Energy can’t be destroyed only redirected, yet again. Do not make the same mistakes you have in the past. Those mistakes, though they have turned out alright (you’re here reading this now aren’t you?) could have always gone better. They could have gone smoother. But you continue to live and function in a paradigm where others not taking responsibility thrust those effects onto you and you just take them on.
But now we can all come together. And now I implore you—to use your privilege. Again, understand, that you have the privilege of sight, of time, and space from what has hurt you. You’ve had that separation from it and therefore you’ve grown. You in this moment have the privilege of perspective as a third party viewer on what is yours. Know too, that this is a perspective you can use in your life RIGHT NOW TOO. You don’t have to hold it all. You don’t have to examine every single detail and hold the burning hot coals until your hands blister. Put it down. Walk around it. View it from the top, the sides, from afar even. NO matter how you choose to look at what is yours—KNOW IT IS YOURS and so no matter the visual sightline or involvement in your own past life journeys you are going to get exactly what you need to get from them.
You just have to show up.
You just have to bare witness.
That’s it.
It’s so simple, but you’re making it so complicated. The pain hurts you now because it’s still not healed. When you break a bone, years later you can sometimes still feel the effects of it in the cold or the heat or under intense weight stress. People who have lost a limb can still feel it even though it’s not there. There will always be a memory of the trauma, but the pain doesn’t have to be there. Don’t associate the memory with the actual physical pain and suffering. The memory is what you’re carrying along with the lesson. The pain and suffering is what can be healed and sealed up the memory smoothed over, peace to be brought to the situation, forgiveness brought to yourself by yourself—for yourself. Not to make what others did to you or for you or because of you okay. No. It’s so that you can release that baggage you have been holding this entire time from that life you’re peaking into.
Did you know that you are most likely still holding trauma from that very first life you incarnated onto this planet? How many lifetimes have you lived since then? Thousands of years, Tens of generations removed. And that break is still broken.
Please be brave dear children.
Please show up for yourselves.
Please don’t make any more excuses.
You’re running out of rope to keep making these same mistakes over and over. When you get to the end of that proverbial rope, you’re going to be left only with what’s necessary and not all this frivolousness you’ve been occupying yourself with to keep your mind away from the perceived pain you’re going to feel from something that’s already passed.